God Does Speak

I've been struggling a lot lately with what I am going to do for the rest of my life. I graduate in May and then I was planning to take a year off then apply to Physical Therapy schools in North Carolina...namely UNC. But being at Caswell is doing a work on me and I don't know if it is because I am in this Godly setting where everyone is always in worship or because God is really trying to turn me towards the foreign missions field. But my heart has been so torn and I have been praying continuously that God show me what to do with my future. Today, at work, I was sitting in the guard stand and just praying (while watching the children swim), asking God to show me direction in my life. Now you know how there is always this, not really voice, but I don't know "voice" in your head when you are thinking about ideas to yourself, more like just ideas that pop into your head. Well this thought popped into my head "Don't you trust me to guide you?" and I knew that it was not my own thought but God had just spoken to me. I've never ever heard God speak to me before and I didn't know what it would be like when He did, but it was just so clear. I just sat there and thought, whoa, did God really just speak to ME?? Did that really just happen because I know that wasn't my own thought. And then I had to think, DO I really trust Him to guide me? Am I willing to not know what is going to happen tomorrow? Am I willing to just trust God to show me the way every day and not worry about what will happen in the future. My answer, I think I can do that for a God that loves me so dearly. I know that I can trust and that it will be hard, but that it is the least I can do.
Sitting here in the after math of all this, I was thinking about a verse so commonly known from Matthew, but I don't think we ever really grasp how important the verse is to life:
"But seek first the kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." -Matthew 6:33-34
Don't worry about the future, it will worry about itself. How hard is that for us to do? To give up total control of what will happen tomorrow or the next day and just allow God to fulfill His purpose within us. It's a struggle, but it's what we are called to do each and every day. Trust, for God knows.