Quicky Update

So I'm pretty sure Holly Austin and my mom are the only people that read this blog, but just for you two I will keep updating!!! :-)

This has been a pretty great week.  My group of students were a lot of fun and the leaders were pretty great too...I mean you can always find negatives in people, but why focus on them?  I was so relieved the first night to have students mature in their faith and that believed the Word of God was true and fact!!  I ended up just hugging them all at the very beginning of our prayer tour after they prayed for the first time. 

[Side note to my ravenclaw folks if you read this...You are still my favorite college group, they are just now my favorite high school group]

Any who, this week has been a struggle not so much with my group but more so with my own personal stuff.  I've been extremely tired all week and monday night I started feeling a little sick, so I've been battling a cold and stocking my body with a lot of Vitamin C.  I've had to rely on God a lot to just keep me in good spirits because I really did want to make the best out of this trip for the students, but I was just worn.

I also became aware today that this is starting to become "just a job", which I don't want it to be.  I passed a homeless guy and said hey and stuff, but I could tell he actually wanted to talk and instead I just kept walking.  NOT okay!  So just pray that God is continuously refreshing my heart for this job.

I bought a book last weekend called Permission to Speak Freely by Anne something or another and it's really been challenging me.  She asks the question, "What is the one thing you feel you can't say in the church?" I think I have a lot that I would be afraid to say in some of the churches I've attended.  She confesses about her porn addiction and sex addiction and just lack of faith at times, it was very interesting.  Am I bold enough to step out and tell what I have and still struggle with and allow people to know how much God is working for me?  Do I dare hold back His power because I'm ashamed of who I am and have been?  Yes, I'm very ashamed and very afraid to admit some things.  I can honestly say that I have only one person that may know all that I've struggled with, and it's not a Christian. 

Please continue praying for me as God works out some stuff in my life, as I make decisions about my future and that He guides those decisions.  Pray for the people of San Fran and Oakland, that my groups and myself will be broken for them and be willing to pour all of ourselves out to them.  Pray for health for the hosts here as this bug continues through us.  And Praise the Lord for SUNSHINE!!!